Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Tricking mama

so we know adel is full of tricks since he was very very young. We even managed to record one instance when he tried to trick Alem when he was around 6 months old.

Well, over the months, naturally, macam2 la dia buat. Not only that, dia ni kuat mengacah org. Tapi jarang dpt record.

Last night, as usual, dia buat lg. But it was a new one, and I thought it was so funny it made me look like a fool, that I feel I should blog about it. Anyway, malam tu, aku tak sihat, so terbaring je la atas lantai. Adel came by my side, minum susu segala, panjat2 atas badan etc mcm biasa. He was pretty bored and I was too weak to play with him.

Tetiba he picked something on the floor, something right next to me and started to put it into his mouth. Mmg dia suka masuk benda dlm mulut. If it doesnt look dangerous, kitorg biar jela, sbb dah penat nak larang. But this time, i didnt know wht it was. So cepat2la tepis and rampas. Rupa2nya serpihan kerepek yg dah kering smpai keras kematu. So balingla jauh2 bawah kabinet.

Then, slowly, dengan senyuman nakalnya, he picked up something else. Again, cepat2 mama dia ni korek jari dia. Nampak cam takde pape. Okla, bebudak ni mata tajam. Benda kecik pon dia kutip, but to us, macam takde pape. Sapu2 jari dia, buang whatever benda tu, ok, setel.

Then dia kutip lagi, cepat2 tepis lagi. Adel dah sengih2 dah. Tgk jari, mcm takde pape. Sapu2, dah!

Then dia kutip lagi. Dia dah tergelak2 dah. Before nak tepis, I noticed that he had no intention to put it, or whatever it was into his mouth pon. Sbb dia angkat his pincer grasp letak depan muka je. And bila kita bukak jari tu, mmg kosong pon.

So all this while yg kita dok sapu2 tangan dia tu, sebenarnya mmg sapu kosong je. Mmg dia tak kutip pape pon, dia saja je syok tgk kita kelam-kabut nak clean his fingers. So he pretended to pick something up. Patutla dia tergelak2.

Then he did it again. Call it reflex. Aku g tepis lagi jari dia yg kosong tak pegang pape tu, kot la this time, betul ada something, while adel dah terkekek ketawa. Dah 4-5 kali dia buat lagi, malas aaa nak tepis. Dah la kena kelentong dgn budak 15 bulan, kena gelak lg dgn dia... buat malu je

Thursday, September 26, 2013


susahnya nak decide.
so my studies dah tak byk nak buat. After that, sv nak publish satu paper, then concentrate thesis.
The thing is, duit dah nak abih, so kenala balik and tak dptla nak join our annual event where we discuss kerja masing2 + skiing + enjoy time kat hotel.
So I told sv about that, dan dia offer bg gaji so that we can stay for another 2 months.
So bolela g event tu dan insyaAllah, siaplah writing, sbb dia mmg worried bebudak kalu balik, selalu terganggu dgn benda2 yg bukan2 yg katanya bukan top priority pon.
Betulla cakap dia tu.

Tapiiiiii.... dah alm byk keja, so I told him terpaksa la balik.

Then, dia suggest stay jela sesorg kat sini, sebulan je pon. Kalu dia dah keja dgn org tu lelama, dia of course nak tgk org tu siap keje dia. Dgr dia ckp, adoiii, now I'm really torn. Tp ni la nak kata, sayang anak punya pasal, tak sanggup la nak berpisah lama2, walo sebulan. Ok, maybe bole kot. But moving back will involve lots of work, and until everything there is settled, barula berani nak tinggalkan dia and rumah lama2.

But really, syukurnya dapat sv yg baik mcm ni. Not only is he very involved in our work, he also cares about our welfare and well-being. I know not many supervisors are like this. Really wish I could stay here until january, but alm has lots to do and he has sacrificed a lot for us, guess it's time to return the favor.

I just hope balik malaysia, kalu sampai2 aku tak layan member2 dan sedara-mara barang sebulan-dua, harap2 diorg faham2 la yer...

Wednesday, July 03, 2013

blood sample

so we went to the clinic today for adel's routine checkup. He's a little taller now, albeit not quite as heavy as he should be. But otherwise, he's healthy. I did however, told the doctor about his skin problem and the itchiness and she prescribed some stuff.

I also told her about his egg allergy and that scary episode that got us scrambling to the hospital late that night. The rashes, the itchiness and the inability to focus when I called out his name. And she was very surprised when I told her that the doctor at the hospital just sent him home and simply told him to avoid eggs @_@

She suggested that we let her take some blood sample so that she can get it tested. She said the hospital has a dermatology dept and the pediatric dept, but their missing link is a specialized group of dermatologists for children to which she'd send the blood sample to. Ok, kinda makes sense. I've always wondered about that kind of doctors too. Good thing they actually have them in Innsbruck, nevermind that it's a little out of the way, in Hall in Tirol.

So she got the needle prepared, and all of the sudden, i got a little nervous for adel. Bole tahan besar gak jarum tu, kalu melalak tu ok lagi, ni kalu mula meloncat, naya nak pegang. But very very surprisingly, he did not even wince when the doctor pushed the needle into his skin. He simply looked at it. Tatau la kot kesan bius tu kuat sgt, which i seriously doubt, sbb doctor tu terlupa sapu bius and only did it at the last minute, just before dia cucuk. Plus, kalu kita adults kena cucuk pun, rasa gak pedih walopun dah sapu bius.

So Adel just sat there, looked at his hand dan punyala relaxed sampai doctor tu pulak suruh dia bg sikit reaction sbb darah tak kuar byk. Only after he got a little bored and restless, baru darah menitik2 keluar. Bole tahan banyak gak la darah dia amik. But looking at how relaxed Adel was, i wasnt too nervous anymore. Bukan apa, i read about how sad other mothers were when their children had their blood samples taken. I imagined i would be sad too, lagi2 kalu anak tu menangis menjerit kesakitan.

Tapi sekarang, while I'm quite relieved dia tak sakit kena cucuk, risau pulak kot his pain threshold is so high nanti kalu kita marah, cubit sampai lebam pun dia tak rasa apa2 lak. Kalu macam ni, kena start strategizing a psychological tactic untuk handle budak kecik ni la nampaknya...

Wednesday, June 26, 2013


the weather's getting bad again. Cold weather comes with dryness that causes eczema on adel's body. It's worst at around 2-3 am when his natural steroid production is at its lowest.

Side effects: Adel menggaru, needing milk, or at least the illusion of milk all night long to calm him down.
Kesian tgk dia, but this also keeps me awake. And someehow, such occurence is often porpotional with my deadlines. If this continues till next week, looks like i will fail to meet the deadlines again like the last time.

On top of that, this headache caused by the lack of sleep is driving me nuts. Sakitnya, rasa macam nak hentak kepala kat dinding, baling pinggan mangkuk atas lantai, followed by jumping off the balcony.

Nak concentrate keje toksah cerita la. If it's just subtitling, ok lagi. But to figure out what exactly causes the packt loss even when there's a slight superfame overlap and to find the optimal waiting time for different number of WPANs is just madness. It's too hard on my numb brain.

Maybe the time has come for me to drop out......

Monday, May 27, 2013

Student supervision

Baru je sorg student settelkan thesis dia, sv suruh supervise sorg lg, and this time it's a MSc student, erks!

Lg best, the notice iklan for the thesis is in jerman, so sah2 la bukan yours truly yg buat. So i was thinking, takde sape la kot yg nak buat, tup2 minggu lepas ada sorg interested in the topic. 

Td tanya sv, suruh cancel je topic tu or suruh2 sapa2 takeover sbb dah nak balik malaysia, dia suruh gak buat, katanya, sempat budak tu siapkan *positive-thinking sgt la mamat ni*

Now i'm just praying, budak tu dah tak minat topik ni, kot nak buat pon, tunggulaaaa winter sem karang when i'm not here anymore.

Thursday, January 31, 2013

finally, no more courses!

yes! no more courses to take!

Just finished giving my presentation for the course of my program as the last presenter. It was for the interdiciplinary seminar comprising students from the physics, mathematics and cs departments. Think it went kinda ok. Mainly because i made it very simple, which i think is how it should be considering that u're presenting it to a bunch of people with different backgrounds.

There was also another guy from the quantum group. He presented some stuff that I had no idea about. And even after his presentation, i still have no idea what it was about. Thought maybe it was me who is too dense to get what he was presenting.

But my groupmate, who is supersmart (who lent me his notebook - thanks, basti!) came along, and he too was lost. We dont know whether the presenter was too lazy to make and effort (and not copy and paste his older slides) or simply wanted to make his work look sooooo complicated and that he is really smart to work on such problem. If it is the latter, then i bet based on my presentation, people are just gonna think that my work is child's play BUT at least they understood it (i hope) and the relevance to them is clearer (i talked about sensor nodes placed on human body yada yada yada, cant get any more relevant than that, can we?)

Got some questions. One of them wasnt very clear, i answered it anyway and i hope he got the answer. The course is compulsory, so a pass is really good enough.

Anyway, what's important is i finished my courses, yay! FINALLY, now i can focus on my thesis...