Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Happy 5th (month) birthday, adel!

We celebrated it yesterday by taking him to the doctor for a jab. That's just how much we love him, mmmmhuah!

Anyway, the short trip home last couple of weeks was a blast. Attended several kenduris and Mom organized an aqiqah kenduri for Adel.

Look, ma, no hands!


Went to Pangkor Laut for a second time. Second honeymoon la kekononnya, but Adel had a bit of a fever, so we stayed there for only one nite, and then went back to Manjung.

Stayed in Kedah only for  few days for the aqiqah, then rushed back to KL as Alem had work to attend to and badminton cravings to satisfy.

And alllll that time, there were always other people (besides me and alem) who'd entertain adel, seronoknya dia learning some useless new tricks (thanks, sis!) and getting new toys.

My sister was impressed that he doesnt drool like many other babies. But ironically, dia terajar this new trick yg buat adel sembur air liur merata-rata. Thanks so much, sis! *geram*

He even initiated a peekaboo game with us, mana dia belajar pon tatau. Sedar2 je he was on his tummy, then dia tonyoh muka kat bantal for several seconds, then he turned towards me and sengih2, then tonyoh balik and smiled again, and did it over and over again sampai bosan.

The second time he did it was with a kain batik. This time, while lying on his back, he covered his own face with the kain, took it down and sengih2, then tutup balik muka and ulang ulang sampai bosan. Kelakar pulak tengok, mesti dia ingat with his eyes covered like that, kita tak nampak dia, padahal dia seketul depan kita, dia tak sedar. Takpa, let him enjoy the game first, in time, he'll learn.

And although he had already started rolling around before we went back, over there, he was rolling around here and there, everywhere. Think it must be because he was wearing less constrictive clothing, hari2 pakai shorts and sleeveless je, sini sejuk, sume covered. Then putar memutar, one minute, u're facing him, before you know it, u're facing his bum, or one minute, he's right in front of your face, the next minute, he 4 feet away from your face, albeit still facing you (he's still in reverse mode, budak baru belajar berjalan la kan, merangkak asyik ke belakang je). Funny that when we were here, he didnt do much, maybe this or that a couple of times a day. Skali kat sana, habis semua skill dia nak show off all the time. The only thing consistent was his membebel. Yup, he does it a lot and so loud that it sounds like you're talking to a 4 year old, cume it's all gibberish, but it's still music to our ears (except when he does it at 3 am in the morning!).

But best of all, his rashes disappeared. Balik sini, tak sampai sehari, dgn dry winter air lagi, naik balik... adoih! 

more rodeln!

our group is organizing another rodeln event this friday.
oooooohhhh, how I would lurve to go!

But the thought of leaving adel with alem for the whole evening till midnight and hiking for 5km uphill in the dark makes it veryyy difficult for me to decide. What's more, my sv pulak dok pujuk2 ajak gi. 

Takpala, I still have 2 more days to make up my mind...

Sunday, November 11, 2012

How we became 3...

at 2 months old (when i drafted this entry :P)

So it was a exactly 4 months ago that I gave birth to our little baby boy... and boy it was an unforgettable experience (or one that I might forget as I grow older, hence this post). Everything that I thought would happen, didnt! The ones that didnt even cross my mine did! But then again, every pregnancy is different, why should labor be any different.

Anyway, I was overdue, after a week, I was starting to get pretty depressed, you know, they say, the longer the baby's in there, he might get some skin problem or the placenta might stop functioning etc, plus, Ayah was gonna be going back to Malaysia in about a week, so of course, I was worried.

 we went to check out the hospital about a week before the due date. Just in case mak and ayah had to go there on their own (in which case, they eventually had to quite a number of times)

July 10th

Then, on the 8th day, I went to the gynae, turned out that the baby's ok, so i tried to stay positive. The next day, while sorting out the luggage for my dad, I felt like... erm, no gush of water, just a tad heavier than a regular flow of Auntie Flo. But it happened for a split second, so I figured... takde pape kot. Went to the toilet for a number one and there it was, seketul mucus plug... so maybe my water had really broken.

Told mom about it, but still wasnt sure. So went about my business, then suddenly, it happened again, again, no color, no smell, just clear water. Told mom that I was going to the hospital, she wanted to come along. Ayah and Alem stayed behind just in case it was a false alarm. So we took the bus, nasib it was raining, so if it came in a gush pon, nobody would guess, kan?

At the hospital, they wanted to keep me there for observation. So mom went home, Ayah and Alem came and brought along my hospital bag.

So it started out pretty ok. I wasnt in pain, with nothing to do, I tried to go to sleep. 
Then at  around 11 or so, had to go to the toilet for a number 2, and i was thinking, wah, bijak betol! The body was getting prepared and berak siap2, and went back to sleep. Then at around 1am, I started feeling the contractions. It was bearable for the first couple of hours, but I wasnt sleepy, so I stayed awake. But of course, it got stronger and more painful with each contraction, the nurse offered some kind of painkiller but I refused to take any, konon nak tunjuk macho la. But not long after, it got so bad that it wasnt even possible to catch some sleep in between contractions anymore, even though they were around 10 minutes apart.

July 11th

Then suddenly, at around 4am, I started to felt nauseous with each contraction. First one, bole tahan, second one, terbangun terduduk, third one, buekkk, out came everything that I ate earlier that evening. Melompat my roomate bukak lampu and passed me the kidney dish, and think she also called the nurse for me. Good thing, I vomited on the blanket, so all I did was lipat2 blanket and passed it to the nurse and this time I asked
for the painkiller, that came in a form of an injection.

So that kinda helped, and i managed to catch some shuteye for an hour or two, before the effects wore off an hour or two later. So again, at around 7, I asked for more painkiller, sadly, they refused to give me any, so tahan la sakit contraction sorg2. Not long after that, 2 nurses came, packed my bag and told me that I should go to the delivery room. Aiks, cepatnya, just like that je eh?

So ikut je la, delivery room was quite cool. It's big with a small tub, a birth ball, a cd player and macam2 lagi kot, tp tak perasan sgt sbb tgh sakit.

A interned housewife was assigned to me and she was extremely helpful. She showed me how to bend your back to reduce the pain. She also suggested that I use the ball. Ball was ok, but it didnt help much. Then she suggested that I go into the tub to ease the pain, I did and at that time, dah terbayang2 giving birth the in tub, keluar2 sure baby bersih je terus.

i only had a small piece of bread in the morning, and that was it. Takot muntah punya pasal. They told me, takkanla, nope, i didnt believe them. 

 me chilling out in the tub

Tapi after an hour or so, the contractions became less regular, so kena la pulak keluar tub. Tp okla, kurang sakit, dapat la relax2. Lunch pon dah sampai, but because I was super afraid that I might throw up again, I let Alem eat it, tapi tak habis pon sebab tak sedap!

The next couple of hours went pretty ok. Contractions were beareable, but werent regular. We even tinkered with their computer, found that two other delivery rooms  were in used. One was by a 16-year-old girl, skali bukak pintu, we could hear her screaming her lungs out! MENGGERUNKAN and I prayed tht i wouldnt scream as loud.

Anyway, lepak punya lepak, think at around 4 or so, they came and said that they needed to get things moving (induce la tu). So they connected me to the drip thing containing oxytocin kot and that's when the contractions started to get stronger. Mula2 tahan dan tahan dan tahan, so they increased the dose and increased lagi dan increased lagi... then i said, dah tak tahan. They offered the epi and I gladly accepted.

They said tunggu, they had to get the anesthetist to explain some stuff and i needed to sign a letter. So i waited, he came and started explaining. You know, when you're pain like that, apa pon tak dengar. I only heard what I wanted to hear, "blablabla, the risks are very low, blablabla, it rarely happens, blablabla..."and i was like, give me the pen already! (which i didnt do la 'cos we asians are just polite like tht). 

So he injected it somewhere around the spine and i waited for a miracle. 

Some 20 minutes later, and i was still waiting. Tak hilang pon sakit! But I still waited. Tired of waiting, told them to increase the dose. So they said, but they could give a muscle relaxer, just give them a second. So tahan la sakit. By this time, i could hardly open my eyes and each time a contraction was about to strike, i'd moan so that alem would start massaging my back. 

About an hour later, i asked alem when they would be giving me the muscle relaxer. To my surprise, he said, dah masuk dalam drip dah. Hah? Takde effect pon. Adoi... Dah enough. I begged them to give me mo epi, serious sakit ni! The american doctor (complete with green uniform-- terus teringat House M.D.) asked me, on a scale of 1-10, how painful was it? I said "10!". (Bagus dia ada, senang nak communicate, takyah la susah payah nak rephrase some terms). And nasib diorg dengar cakap dia walopon dia cume visiting je.

So they increased the epi dose, and i waited for the pain to subside. Tunggu punya tunggu, tak hilang gak! Adusss... And when the doctor checked the opening, it was still 5cm. Berejam2 tungguh, still 5cm? It was 5cm a couple of hours ago. Then came more bad news, they had given everything to help with the pain, they had nothing else to offer, so tahan jela sakit sampai fully dilated... sedih!

So tahan and tahan, occasionally, they'd leave me with alem mengurut. At one time, 4-5 of them came in a rush 'cause they detected that the baby's heartbeat was slowing down. Else, it was just me with alem mengurut my back berejam2 sampai terlentok kepala dia atas katil. The oxytocin was at all time high, almost at the maximum level, and i was suffering sampai mata tertutup, cakap tak keluar suara...

Several hours later, think it was around 8-9pm,they came to check the opening again. It was 8cm. Finally! Some progress! TAPI bila bidan seluk, she found that the baby's head was not in position. In fact, she could feel it moving. Then, to confirm, the doctor did a scan, and we could clearly see it turning left and right, left and right. Okay! Now let's get it in position. They told me to go down on all four with my butt up in the air sambil goyang2 punggung. Teruk tu nak buat tgh2 sakit camtu. So alem and the midwife helped goyang2 my punggung sampai penat.

About an hour or so later, they came to check again, baby's head was almost there but not quite, so my midwife got another midwife to come and help. They each held my legs up and push them in and out, in and out. Then I could hear my midwife say, that if this fails, they'd have to go for c-sec. In my mind, i was thinking, "After almost a day in active labor, now you're suggesting c-sec?!"

Tapi, tetiba (ok, some time passed, but I barely noticed), about 5-6 people were around me. The widwife was telling me to start pushing when the next contraction is about to come. Eh, macam tu je, takde warning apa pun? 

Oh, ok. So they started encouraging me to push. First contraction, pusssh! Nothing. Second, puusssshh, nothing. Third contraction, puuuuushhhh. Then, they said, you can just push now, no need to wait for the contraction to come. 

Oh, ok, sure, like I wasnt? Seriously, i would've pushed harder if i wasnt as exhausted as I was then. But worried that my baby might have a conehead. I took a deep breath, and quickly puuuuuuuusssshhhhhhed! At this time, they could already see his head. Everybody was getting excited. 

The midwives kept telling me to push, the american doctor was giving me words of encouragement (you know the typical, "you're doing great, you're almost there.... teringat film amerika), alem was reciting some ayats while telling me to push harder and that it should be over once he was out. Kecohnya, macam pasar borong! 

And so I pppppuuuushhhhhhhhhhed! My midwife, with one hand pushed against the wall and one pushing my stomach from the upper part of my body, also puuuuuuussssshhhed and then, they suddenly, told me to stop pushing. Right at that moment, I could feel something squirming 'over there' and, 

Alhamdullillahhhhhhhh, at 10:47 pm, after almost 20 hours in labor, around 36 hours of no sleep, and a day of no food, he was finally out... Alem got the honor the cut his umbilical cord, and they put him on my chest. But my God, i was SO exhausted at that time I didnt have the strengh to even hold him. So he just lay there until i dont know... because I sorta passed out. 

I could hear them telling alem that it'd take an hour max for the placenta to come out, and alem told them that we wanted it... Then, all of a sudden, my stomach was starting to hurt. I opened my eyes and found the midwife practically kneading it. Apparently, the placenta would not come out. They waited, nothing. Then, stuck needles all over my tummy (acupuncture la tu), nothing (and I was out that whole time). So, they kneaded it and pulled it out. Sakitnyaaaaa easily could match sakit beranak, no kidding!

And finally the placenta came out, BUT they kinda tore it, sbb when they held it in front of me, nampak sgt rabak. And it was around this time, the delivery room kecoh, everybody was running around. Two older male doctors came. I saw my doctor wearing the mask and presumably stitched something. Alem wanted to look, they forbid him. 

But I guessed the stiches wasnt enough. Because the male doctor took one at look at it, told me that the top of my placenta was bleeding and ordered them to take me to the operating theater asap. So kelam-kabut la sume orang moving me onto the moving strecther, and at that time, i realized my baby was no longer with me. 

 all that was left of me in the delivery room

As I was being moved out of the room, i turned to the left and only saw alem's back. He was facing the window and I assume, was also mengazankan adel, sayu lak rasa not being able to look at their faces... Especially when I didnt really know what they were gonna do to me. And all I could think about was... "what if this is it?", "what if there's no more tomorrow?" Tetiba je, i saw flashes of Lagenda Budak Setan, you know, the wife dies during childbirth... of all things, eh? Cerita melayu pulak tu! Funny la how the mind works.

Anyway, i dont remember much of what took place at the operating room. Just remember repeatedly asking the american doctor if they were gonna put me under or what? She didnt say anything (tak tau la tu), i appreciate that she accompanied me to the operating room. There, I just remember seeing the aenestician's face (again! Was he there the whole day or what) and then I was out.

Sedar2, somebody was telling me that they've managed to stop the bleeding and then I passed out again. Sedar2 second time, we were at the hallway. The nurse was telling Alem that he couldnt stay for the night, but he could follow her to check on our son before going home. So he came to me, kissed me goodnite and left.

Again, tak tau kenapa, rasa sayu lagi. Anak belum jumpa, suami dah nak balik, sakit tak ingat, penat tak terkata. But as I was extremely tired, sayu kejap je la. Sampai bilik, i pretty much passed out until a nurse came to clean me at 3 in the morning. 

 so I guess it was alem that he saw first, eh? Or maybe he saw me when they put him on my chest, but too bad I was too exhausted to even open my eyes then.

the next morning (with my hiding my humongous tummy) 

In short, my experience was, I would say, hmmm... wasnt easy. My body wasnt very cooperative that they to induce me at almost the maximum dose for hours, in addition, I lost a lot of blood that left me with a low blod pressure for days (with the effects being pening2 lalat and mengantuk semacam), but I took those tablets day and night and mom cooked some good food to increase my platelets and I managed to avoid having to go thru a blood transfusion. 

And when they say beranak memenatkan and the lady needs to rest, trust me, it's true. Penattt sangat that I could bare talk the next morning, and I'm not one to easily succumb to exhaustion. And the pain, it lingered for days... but as cliche as this may sound, looking at my baby today, how he's growing and progressing, recognising faces, sights and sound, and how he dependent he is on me and how that somehow gives me a sense of importance, all that pain is fast becoming a distant memory...

at the hospital

 at about 3 weeks old

Happy 4th month birthday, Adel!!!

Tuesday, November 06, 2012

Bad parenting

so adel is quite a feisty one since the day we brought him home. Dah la cepat bosan (kids with their short attention span, normal la kan?) susah tido, kuat marah, kuat mengeliat, kuat menggelupur, kuat (he seemed to have demonstrated his strength even before he was born- but think i'll write about that later) that we constantly have to come up with something to keep him satisfied.

Anyways, when he was about a month old, i started playing gangnam style each time i needed him to calm down a little. So bole la pegang with one hand and used the other utk mkan ke buat keje pape.

In the last couple of days, Alem rasanya dah penat memegang adel, so he started playing mario brothers on youtube for adel to watch. Guess what, that really got adel's attention. Must be the colors and the sound kot. So senang la sikit alem nak buat keje, nak masak ke apa... So since then, kalu nak buat pape, I'd do the same, main mario brothers, and g mandi ke, lipat baju ke apa2 ke.

This was last week when we thought mario brothers are fun and harmless 

Tp yesterday, rasa guiltyyyy sgt. I came home. Saw adel on his tummy, tangan crossing uncrossing, feet up in the air while watching mario brothers sampai he didnt even bother to turn and look at me when i got home. Normally, he'd turn and look whenever I opened the door, regardless of what he was doing. But yesterday, langsung tarak!

Even when I went down and said hi to his face pon he didnt really bother to look at me. Okla, he glanced a little then went back to his mario brothers. Geram pon ada, sedih pon ada...

This was yesterday, after saying hi for the upteenth time. Watching my almost 4-month-old enjoying mario brothers makes me feel like a really bad parent

Aaaaiiissssshhh, i really don't know what to do. If only i could play with him all day and not let him watch utube, honestly i would. But the demands of our modern life ni mmg very frustrating la....

Monday, November 05, 2012

Annual appraisal

so ni la first time review blk goals yg kami set last yr (gosh, how time flies, eh?) Most things are ok, tp yg sangkut skit bab classes dgn research. Mmg expected pon, dgn beranak etc.

Anyway, yg buat aku terharu is bila my sv kata dia kagum sbb aku sanggup g conf. kat orlando hari tu dgn perot bulat. Tersipu2 aku. I mean, kat US tu, bukan senang nak dpt visa, diorg sponsor lak tau, bole g shopping lg, plus bukan senang nak dpt accepted, of course la i wouldn miss for *almost* anything in the world. Dia kata, colleague2 dia kat sana pon impressed gak. Malunya aku hihihi...

When it came to my turn, aku pon kata aku takde pape nak complain psl dia. Dia mmg sgt helpful.

Tu jela nak cerita, before the start of the last leg of my *journey*, at which point sah2 byk cerita2 sedih nak mula. Goals utk next yr dah set. Nampak sgt menakutkan. So apa2 cerita tht lifts me up, wajib blog...

Friday, September 28, 2012

Primark in Innsbruck

was opened yesterday. Of all places, eh? hehehehe

But hey, money's tight, so who's complaining. In fact, i think they're very smart to have chosen Innsbruck as the first place to open their store in Austria. Cost of living here is expensive, but people here dont make as much as those in Vienna, so they can bet they'd be getting a steady flow of regular customers very soon. Plus  they are also trying to lure those with shallow pockets in Bayern to come and shop here, so yeah, it's a smart move indeed.

Even smarter, they choose Sillpark, which is within walking distance from our place. So today, after taking Adel to the doctor, we stopped at Sillpark. Alem was like, "Why?" Must've irked him so much to hear me talking about primark primark primark in the last couple of days. Sampai situ, sesak pulak tu.

But we've been talking about getting some warm clothes for Adel. So, once we were there, we went straight to the baby's section. The choices were limited, but enough la to get us syiok memilih baju, even Alem pon stop complaining about the crowd. 

So I think now Adel is prepared for winter. Weeee, tak sabar nak tgk dia pakai full winter get-up, sure mengamok dia kena balut, but tak sabar nonetheless. Harap2 tahan jela, barang murah, kan? Takot gak kot kurang kualiti...

Sunday, September 23, 2012

People babies attract

So yesterday, I took adel to m-preis (it's a local supermarket). Along the way, met several people, and Innsbruckers, being the friendly people that they are (my parents might disagree, but then again, they dont speak german at all), were oohing and aahing over adel. This is pretty normal, and particularly normal with the elderlies.

Anyway, as I was approaching m-pries, a friendly old man standing under the tree, next to his bike suddenly said something to me. I didnt fully understand him, guessed it was just some remarks about adel, so I just smiled. But he kept talking and came closer to me while repeating, "sailan, sailan." So I said, "tak pahamla, my german tak bagus sgt."

Then he continued, "Awak org asia, kan? Sailan?"
Hohohoh, ok. I replied, "Oh, tak, Malaysia. Tu dekat Thailand."

Hahaha, he laughed, I laughed, I said bye-bye and left.

So I did my shopping and on the way out, there he was again, smoking a cigarette. He greeted me again and he asked a couple of questions about adel, you know normal stuff, name, age, sex. Then he asked how old I am. Told him my age. Then he told me he's 63, and laughingly, he said, "old enough to be your father hahahaha."
Then he asked, "how old is your husband?" Told him alem's age.
"Ooooh, hahahaha. You're older than him? Hahahaha." Hampeh!
So I said, "Sikit je, ok?" Gelak2 la tapi... so I said gotta go, bye-bye.

So i went to the other bigger m-pries, bought a small piece of cake, went to the playground next to the river and ate my cake while enjoying the nice cool weather while listening to the sound of the clean and clear river. Then adel woke up and merengek lapar. Aiseh... I didnt want to breastfeed him there, and I didnt have any spare milk with me. So i packed my stuff and kelam-kabut tolak stroller balik.

On the way back, I passed the first m-preis, and there he was again, this time, drinking a can of beer. Adoiiii... penunggu m-preis ke apa orang tua ni?

So tegur2 friendly seperti biasa, except this time dia dah terlebih friendly. He asked something about my father and mother and husband that i couldn't really understand. So he rephrased it. Think he asked something like... tinggal dengan sapa? I said, oooh, dengan suami, tapi skarang dia takde (sbb g hantar cousin g airport). Think he misunderstood my answer, thinking he's not around as in we're not together sbb lepas tu, he patted my shoulders and said, "sekali, dua kali, lepas tiga kali, bolehla kita get together hahaha."

Hahaha... miang rupanya ini pak cik. Okla lampu dah hijau, nak cross jalan, cabutttt!

Monday, September 03, 2012

Purse/Bags preorder

This must seem quite random, but a relative is coming and would be going back at the end of September.

So if anybody is interested in a European branded purse or bag, be it a Longchamp, LV, Gucci, Prada etc, just let us know, and we'd be glad to send it back to Malaysia :)

Sunday, July 01, 2012

40 weeks ago...

so about 5 months ago, at right about 6-7pm, i'd start to get really hungry up to a point of feeling super neuseous, and at night, i'd get severe headache tht i had to go to bed earlier than usual. But as I was swamped with work sampai stayback pkul 2am, i figured, penat keje kot ni. That went on for a few weeks.

Then, it got worse, one weekend, rasa macam nak demam, then at one night, nausea almost woke me up in the middle on night. Then, the following night, after work, as i was getting changed, alem came into our room and commented, "**** dah gemok ye skarang". Chisss, i felt insulted (ada hati rasa insulted, padahal tak penah exercise pon :P), and blamed it on constipation. Then, again, that night, i woke up feeling nauseous sampai susah nak tidur balik, tp sbb penat, last2 tertidor gakla.

The next morning, feeling unsettled, amik stock hpt, and surprise2, i wasnt gemok for no reason after all. Did a second test, positive gak. Hmmm... strange. Told alem about it, he seemed unsure about it as my period had just ended. So we decided to just forget about it (tatau la sbb in denial ke sbb traumatized from the previous miscarriage).

But I was still feeling nauseous whenever I started feeling hungry so the following week, i persuaded alem to go and see a gynae, walaupun sebenarnya takot tht it might just be a fluke. Chk2, fetus dah besar dah pon, dah active bergerak with a strong heartbeat.

Now, if going by my menstruation cycle, patutnya at tht time baru segumpal darah je. Then, we backtracked for 2 cycles, then it made sense, which means the last period wasnt a period, but some old blood that lasted for almost a week. Wallahuaklam...

Apa2 pon, i am grateful that it's been pretty easy so far. I'm grateful tht i didnt know it sooner, partly because had i known about it sooner, mesti mengada2 sampai 3 bulan. Dah tau hujung2 first trimester, mengadanya pun sekejap je la before all the sickness dissipated.

Now, at 23 weeks, I got almost another half-way to go. I still worry about him all the time. Apa lagi, with my active lifestyle, yg selalu ke sana sini, pecut kejar bus malam2 and keje yg bertimbun2. And while I can occasionally feel the flutters and the tapping on the inside, I'm really hoping to feel solid kicks so i will no longer confuse those weird sensations with... say... gas.

I pray that it'll be all be ok this time... insyaAllah.

Ok, so the above was typed almost 20 weeks ago. Today, it is exactly 40 weeks. Tomorrow, dah overdue. My parents are already here, I've already started my maternity leave or rather, I was told by my sv tht he didnt wanna see me around a couple of weeks ago, and I'm prepared for our little bundle of joy... am just wondering when he's gonna be prepared to finally meet us...

Monday, June 25, 2012

Malaysian food

so i woke up one morning, walked into the kitchen and this is what I saw!

I know tht alem's been watching videos on chicken rice, itik gantung etc on youtube in the previous couple of days, tp bila tgk sekor ayam tergantung kat dapur semalaman tu... errr terkejut gakla...

Anyway, he's been talking about making a rice chicken that's tasty enough to rival chee meng's, sampai video bahasa cina from China pon dia tgk, tatau dia paham camne.... so I guess this shouldnt come as a surprise la kan...

And I gotta admit after eating many many versions of his chicken rice, dari yg nasi kuning ke color sikit pale, dari ayam yg warna gelap ke yg berkilat kemerahan-merahan dgn sup yg ada kacang and sambal, well... this one has been pretty consistent except that sometimes it may get a bit too hot depending on the type of chili we get at the asian shop, I gotta say tht his chicken rice is so good that i've forgotten how chee meng's tastes like.

This was one of his last versions of nasi ayam

Then, it stopped!

But after telling him one day that i wanted to make roti canai and studying the recipes, only to give up and buy the roti prata yg 5 keping sampai kat 3 Euro, he decided to make one himself. So without refering to any recipe, sbb katanya member dia yg tolong bapak dia bisnes roti canai pernah cerita cara2 nak buat, dia went and added this and tht and alhamdullillah... menjadi! Tp ada la jugak tukar tepung dua tiga kali, because we wanted one that high in gluten sebab senang nak tebar, tp pening gakla nak pilih tepung kat sini sbb byk sangat pilihan. So kalu tak tau number, silap pilih, roti tak stretchy, berkurun uli tak cantik. Then for the next two three weeks, almost every other day, makan roti canai. Then it stopped!

the only pic i managed to snap before his mood changed

oh yeah, we had this after reading Pyan's pictures and status on meatworks. Hari2 tgk, geram, last2 kitorg pon makan meat, tp sendiri buat, tp kiddy size jela sbb daging bahagian sedap mahal, ni pon tak dpt la sirloin ke apa ke, janji dapat daging.

Last March, dia mood nak buat satay. He invited some friends over, had a satay barbaque while I was away in Oralando. Then, of course, I felt a little hmmmm... left out (must be the hormons), kalu dia hidang chicken rice tak kisah sgt sbb dah biasa mkan, but satay kitorg pon belum penah bakar kat sini. So when I came back that Sunday, petang tu while I was asleep, dia buat kuah kacang and mula bakar satay which was ahhhh.... heavenly. Tp dia tak puas hati sbb arang tu arang batu, so tak bagus, susah nak buat api, he wants arang kayu. So by the looks of it, dgn weather yg makin best, rasanya tak lama lg, makan sate la hari2... not tht I'm complaining kan, sbb sate last weekend tu pon rasa cam makan tak puas....

Bakar satay dlm serba kekurangan. Terkejut gakla tgk dia pakai penyodok buat kipas... but anything goes lah, janji satay masak.

Then, Sabb came, again we had satay. But now, he is in hiatus, probably looking for something to strike his fancy. In the meantime, we just have the usual fare, which is totally fine by me, I just eat anything's available.

So I'd say I'm lucky to have him around. But while most husbands are just grateful that their wives can cook, i dont think I can say the same about him. And unlike some women who like to hear their husbands rave about the food they cook, I have learnt not to even bother asking, heck, I dont even know what he likes, so impressing him with a home-cooked meal is totally out of the question. In fact, even with a proper kitchen that we have now, think I experiment a lot less than I did than when I was in  Erlangen, nak melangkah masuk dapur pon dah menyampah, rasa macam buat apa sume macam tak kena, semua tak sedap. Nasibla pregnant ni tak ngidam apa2 pelik2, kalu tak sure, naya!

Monday, June 18, 2012

38 weeks++ and still nothing...?

no bloody show,  the baby hasnt dropped (i think), no sign of  him wanting to come out anytime soon, it seems...

okla kot, as we also havent bought much, no kinderwagen (pram? stroller?), a carseat, a bed or even a diaper. The only thing we bought was a baby bottle... :p Yang lain2, think maybe we'll wait until next week when my parents are here or when he's out, baru beli kot. Read somewhere that mothers usually have to stay in the hospital for 5 days in Austria, so that's plenty of time for Alem to do some shopping.

Plus, we already have some clothes and milk bottles, thanks to some very generous friends :)
Think that should be enough for me. I mean, it's not like we know how big he's gonna be, so it's probably doesnt make sense to go out and buy them now... I think :/

But in the meantime... sakitnya badan...

Thursday, June 07, 2012

maxis sucks

stupid maxis deactivated my sim card without warning!

Friday, May 18, 2012

I'm a fraud victim...

And it happened to my German credit card!
250 Euro pulak tu!

Aduh... pening kepala fikir.
So I called them up immediately, thinking I'd have problems communicating the Problem as based on my experience, this particular bank is not very fond of using English. But surprise surprise, both customer service officers that I spoke to are pretty good in English. Probably in the last couple of years, they decided, hmmmm... let's go international, or at least, european.

Anyway, they asked me to fill up the reklamation form and we'll see what happens. I also them to cancel the card immediately.

I really hope I get my money back. I hope they are aware of this online casino #!@#!!^$^& and such transactions so that they'd process the reklamation as soon as possible.

In the meantime, tolongla doa-doakan reklamation tu diorg process cepat2 ye.

Oh, btw, when i said reklamation, i actually meant refund. Tp faham2 jela, lebih kurang cam english je pon...

Wednesday, April 25, 2012


So i wanted to post this agessss ago, but the day after we went sledding, i suddenly freaked out, worried that i might've hurt the baby. Feeling guilty about it, i totally forgot about posting this entry.

Anyway, think it was in November or December that our group went sledding. So they said it was gonna be just an hour or so up the hill before we could sled down. Okla, baru 2 bulan, rasanya bole gagah lg kot, plus, since nobody knew about the pregnancy and sume pon super-excited about it, takkan nak ngada2 kata tak nak pegi kot.

Sekali, belum sampai half-way, i started panting like crazy, alasannya, tak fit, tp mmg sume tau i'm the least fit in the group pon, so i guess sapa pon tak terkejut. And kesian our team assistant, asyik kena jalan slow 'cause she didnt want to leave me behind. And it was no surprise la sapa paling last sampai kat restaurant at the top of the hill tu.

 taking a break so tht yg tertinggal boleh catch up, so bergambar dulu

Me being the typical asian, siap posing senget with the peace sign. Yg lain being typical german (termasuk yg austrian skali), berdiri tegak je... 

Kat hut/restaurant tu, sebelum makan mknan tyrolean yg tak sedap!

..... gmbar sledding takdak! Takde sapa pon teringat nak keluarkan kamera...

So sampai kat atas, makan2, then for the first-timers, the experienced ones gave like a brief explanation on how to use the sled and off we went. Mula2 jalan landai, so i was, duh, ni je ke? 

Then suddenly, zasssss, bebudak lain jln laju, leaving me (again) behind. Then baru tau, kat depan tu jalan dah curam dan curam lagi dan curammmm lagi (i should've known, naik td dah tercungap2). Dah la nak control susah memandangkan kasut aku ni bunga dah nak ilang. Malam gelap pulak tu, winter pon baru start, so benteng kat tepi tebing belum ada. Gila scary ok! Tp these guys were going punya la laju, even at sharp corners. Even my sv pun berani jalan laju, siap cilok2 lg, tp sekali terbabas, nyaring gakla dia menjerit, aku pon tergelak.

Then about 100 m sebelum smpai bawah, my roommate ajak tumpang sled dia, kira dia navigate la since dia pon very experienced. Bole la. Sekali, baru jalan sikit dia dah laju, terus aku menjerit tak tercontrol2 dah. Lg best sampai kat kaki bukit pon terjerit2 lg sampai member sorg yg tunggu kat bawah tu pelik sampai tanya, "Apsal jerit lg, dah sampai kat bawah dah pon?" 

Tp tu la, lain kali jgn gelak kat org, dah kena gelak balik....  ;P

Wednesday, April 04, 2012

Orlando Part II

So conference dah abih, ada satu hari extra. Nak buat apa? Shopping la apa lg :D

On the first day sampai, dah survey2 outlet, rasa mmg kena pegi lg ni, so reserve last day nak g lagi. But before that, ingat dah sampai Florida, nak mkn seafood, so on the second last night, i went to Joe's Crab Shack.

Mmg awkward gakla mkn sorg2 kat tmpat meriah camni. Dgn kanak2 jerit2, family sembang tak stop2, music blasting at the top possible volume, tp seafood punya pasal...

So I had Queen Crab (King Crab kena tambah lg $10, plus kulit keras), udang and crawfish. Ni la first time tgk and mkn crawfish. Rupa cam lobster, tp version kecik, sedap gak. Pastu masak dgn cajun seasoning yg pedas gakla... Portion mcm besar, time mkn cam kenyang, balik bilik, kelaparan huhuhu... i blame it on the long walk back to the hotel.

this is the one on International Drive, yg lepas2 tu dah tak teringat nak amik

Anyway, esok tu g dua outlets. Dua2 tu cam sama je, cuma kedai2 ada beza2 sikit. So pagi2, jalan sebatu, amik bus bawak bag tarik g Orlando Premium Outlet yg kat International Drive, yg tu tak happening sgt, cuma special sbb ada Victoria's Secret punya outlet, the only one in the country. So harus la beli sikit2 kat situ. Too bad my sis's sms tak sampai, dia pesan barang2 utk kawin, kalau tak dah bole beli something *wink wink* that she can wear on her wedding night.

Then at right about 1pm, kejar bus, g the other Premium Outlet on Vineland Avenue that I visited on the first day tu. Yg tu mmg lg byk kedai dan byk org. Habis beriban-riban gakla, but not my riban2 sbb amik order utk adik, cousin, s-i-laws, alem and okla, utk diri sendiri yg dah lama deprived from any sort of retail therapy dan dah berbulan2 mental tahap hampir depression. So sekali dalam bertahun2, what's the harm, kan? Dah bertahun buat translation, bila lg nak keluarkan payment utk nak beli handbag? :D

Anyway, kalu sapa g situ and in my situation, bwk la luggage lg besar. The one I brought was the typical cabin-sized luggage. Alih2 tak muat sbb handbags mmg makan space, last2 kena sangkut jeans and more bags kat handle dia sampai kena pegang at all times, kalu tak terbalik.

And since dah tak mampu nak jalan dah, sbb after being out for almost 12 hours, kaki dah nak tercabut, penat sampai tak larat nak ckp, and kena save some energy sbb nanti nak keluar lg beli some last minute souvenirs and to pack my bag, so amikla taxi balik hotel.

Soooooo... in short, penat tapi syok hihihi. If my mom finds out tht i pushed myself that hard in this condition, matila kena marah, yikes!

Thursday, March 29, 2012

infocom 2012

Today (?? Nampak sgt dah lama type tapi tak post hehehe) is the last day of the Infocom (well, there's a workshop tomorrow, but that doesnt count). But I'm so busy chasing a deadline, so much so that I didnt get to attend any of the sessions.

But to sum up, infocom ni mmg hebat! Here, i got to meet those big names that we often see on papers. Among them, Peter Steenkiste, Nitin Vaidya, my SV went out for dinner with Bianchi, and sapa2 lg tah yg mungkin kenal nama tp rupa tak kenal. Tp tula, ni pon rasanya sbb buat kat US, tatau kalu buat kat tmpt lain diorg nak dtg ke tak. But as far as the presentations are concerned, those that I attended were hmmm... i dunno, maybe their papers are good, but because i couldnt read them beforehand and kena pulak diorg present dgn accent n slides yg mcm hampeh, terus tak paham. Byk yg tak paham pon, ramaiiii sgt from China, byk tracks pon yg sume from China.

Kena pulak organisers kedekut, dah Cisco sponsor pon bg CD je. Dunnola if hilton Orlando ni mahal sampai tak mampu nak bg usb stick, not only tht, bag pon tarak!

Tp makan halal, alhamdullillah, ada. Tp diorg masak halal ala2 tangkap muat je, rupa lawa tp tasteless, but on the second last day, it was kinda ok, sbb ada chicken with pineapple.

But otherwise, hilton is always a nice hotel to go too. Facilities ok, pekerja dia ok. And with me being pregnant, rasanya diorg pon perasan, siap suruh aku berehat bila nampak aku dok pulun kejar deadline ni (nope, didnt do the work in my room sbb nak makan free kat hilton).

Hotel pon agak cantik gakla. My roommate, Ba--i, on the first day, was so enthusiastic bila nampak org enjoy2 sambil makan kat pool that he went, "WOW!" Granted that this is his first time outside Europe dan sampai kat hotel cam mewah dan naik airplane (terkejut aku bila dia ckp dia ingatkan mkanan dlm plane kena beli, dia ingat sama cam dlm train kot). Tp mmg kanak2 betolla mamat ni, nampak tupai pon nak point out, nampak cicak kat pathway pon kena mention, nampak pokok tetumpang yg akar mcm kapas berjalar2, stop tgk, tapi paling pelik was when tgh jalan, we heard a siren, suddenly he stopped dead in his tracks, and i was like, "Apsal apsal apsal?", dia jawab, "I wanna see the cop."... Heh? Wah wah, cop tu, dah tak panggil police (polizei). Kat US la katakan... Tp takpela, bg dia can, dia pon kanak2 riang lg. Kalau tak, takdela, dgn tak segan silu dia mintak kat volunteer t-shirt infocom for free, and no, those are only for the volunteers. Tergelak aku tgk gelagat dia, tp kalu dia mula cerita teknikal, aku lak terus terdiam hahahaha, typical germans.

sapa pon tak teringat nak amik pictures of me and my poster, because it was on the first day, so posing dgn poster demo jela...

Dunno who the girl is, another presenter, i reckon. Tp dah she just happened to be there, bila sv suruh masuk, terus automatically struck a pose!

As for my poster, i think it went quite ok, but I chose a terrible spot. The traffic wasnt so great when u have your poster opposite the wall. Next time, choose one the in the middle of the room. And people actually remembered me, never mind that it was because of my tummy. But they actually remembered me sampai my sv actually told my that member2 dia came up to him, ckp tht they saw my poster, then mentioned about my being pregnant. Rasanya ada gak kot yg bg advice kat dia sbb ptg first day tu tetiba dia tanya2, siap dok congak2 my downtime karang bile nak beranak... terharu lak rasa...

And our demo, it was quite ok too. But that was more of a Ba--i's show as he is the first author. During break, there were quite a number of people, so I handled some of them. But when the sessions resumed, most left, so after a while, I also left Ba--i to attend some of the presentations.

The crossroad to the hotel plaza boulevard where the best western is located. Sume pon disney disney disney!

Where we stayed

The view from my room

Buffalo wings, yee haw!!

Senang ada microwave, mkn tapau je...

And oh, I'm staying at Best Western (which is way cheaper than Hilton). Strangely my room has a microwave oven and a fridge, in my sv's or ba--i's, tak lak. But location-wise, mmg okla, dekat dgn hilton, and not too far from main road. And paling penting, depan bus stop, too bad i found only on the last day tht i could take a bus to the outlets form there, kalu tau, takde la menapak kat 1 batu g the next bus stop, but at least, okla jugak dpt tau sbb on tht last day there mmg sakit gakla kalu nak menarik sampai 2 bag + container poster sampai sebatu...

Makan maggi before leaving for the airport...

Sunday, March 25, 2012

halal food in orlando

as far as food is concerned here, I'm happy happy happy!
No more doener each time we go out for a halal meal, no more pilaf each time I ask for rice, but instead here, i can get buffalo wings, sezchuan rice, chicken wantan, spicy chicken rice and lots more!

Ok, ok, i know halal food is easy to find in this country. But I still see muslim looking for halal food whenever they're in town on forums and google answer, so i'm sure not all muslim Disney visitors are from around here, so this post might be useful for them (and myself should I happen to come here again).

Ok, so where can I can them?
Well, if you stay around the Hotel Plaza Boulevard like I am (I'm staying at the Best Western Hotel at the moment), you need to get out to the main road, the S. Apopka Vineland Road, cross the road. Yes, that'll take you to mcD, then turn left and walk straight on....... Along the way, you'll see burger king on your right, chili's on the left, joe's crab on left, you'd probably walk past habibi (which is also a muslim rest, but i didnt stop there, their food is a little on the expensive side), then, 2 huge gift shops selling Disney merchandise on your left (which is probably owned by the same muslim person as their staff are muslims and the merchandise are the same), walgreen on your left, walk a little bit more...... you will see ABC wine on your right, stop and turn right.

Walk straight in, first you'll see China 3 where they offer HALAL CHINESE food, and right next to it, is Philly's Steak or something where they offer typical american food (and some $4.99 very spicy chicken rice that I must have again) which are also HALAL!

China 3 does delivery with a $2 service charge, but if you're unwilling to part with your money willing to walk for about 4 km/2 miles like i did (i wanted to explore the area, ok?), then walk. Be warned though that it's can get scorching hot, but hey, if a 6-month pregnant lady do it, anyone can too!

chicken rice at Philly Steak...

China 3

But I must admit, it was pretty tough as I bought quite a lot (including dinner + bfast + lunch for the following day) which probably was around 2kg. On the way back, I also bought 3 liter of drinking water from walgreen (had to, it was only $1.30, tap water in the hotel looks somewhat yellowish and around the hotel, the best you can get for a liter of water is about $3), so that WAS actually pretty heavy for me to carry for a longggg walk back to the hotel, but that's alright. At least, i got myself some halal toyyiban food. But think next time, I'll just give them a call instead :)

Friday, March 23, 2012

orthodox hud

so i was stucked at the washington dulles airport for almost 6 hours yesterday, waiting for my flight to orlando. Dan sbb lambat dpt access internet, lmbt update status fb, tak sempat la member PPP baca. Kalau tak, bole menjejak kasih dann takle sebosan ni...

anyway, mcm bengong je aku, i questioned the price of the adapter sbb kata 29.90, sekali charge 31++, pastu dia kata tax. Oh yeah, right. Ni US. Aiseh... ni tips camne lak ye? Kalu tak bg, ok tak agaknya... ke ok buat2 tak tau.

Anyway, nak cerita pasal benda lain ni. Td, kat airport vienna, waiting in the same line as i was, ada la beberapa family orthodox jewish, ramai gakla. Sume baju2 hitam. Yg laki pakai topi besar with curled hair at places where u'd expect to see sideburns or pakai topi bulat kecik tu, pompuan pakai scrarf balut kepala tp telinga terkeluar dgn long black skirts. Ramai gak nak blk us, mcm dtg convention yahudi ke apa je kat vienna.

Anyway, diorg biasa je, tp yg agak pelik was tht at around half an hour before landing, yg pompuan ni bawak kuar wig, pakai atas scarf. Ala2 tutup aurat, pastu pakai rambut on top. Pelik lak nk blk us baru buat, kat austria, selamba dek je. Siap sorg tu ikat rambut (wig lg).

Pastu kat airport ni, td ternampak sorg laki yahudi mazhab yg sama semayang at one small corner, mengadap dinding. Dia cam berdiri tegak, then rukuk, then ulang berpuluh2 kali. Bole tahan laju gakla, nak cepat kot. Ni mesti geng yg pious ni.

Tu je nak cerita, sbb b4 this, baca n tgk tv je, ni betol2 nampak... so cam culture-shock sikit... hehehehe.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

I'm so tired i cried......

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

penyelia luar biasa

i consider myself lucky sbb dpt penyelia yg rasanya kurang tipikal.
okla, i had my moments yg takot tahap terketar2 nk jumpa dia, tp since dtg sini, we both agree hubungan kami dah byk kali improve. Tatau sbb apa, sbb dia dah bos kot so dia cam lebih relax, or sbb bilik dia dkt sgt kot, then selalu sgt jumpa. Plus, dia dah kurang students, so dia monitor kitorg mcm helang, so sume masalah or usaha aku dia lebih paham, or rather, aku dah kurang segan nak luahkan kot... i mean, dia mmg selalu suruh tanya tanya tanya kalu x paham, mmg selalu pon tanya, tp dulu kat ex-rommmie la sbb convenient, cumanya dia bidang lain. Sini terpaksa tanya mamat sorg lg, tp mmg dulu aku segan pon nak tanya mamat tu sbb bilik lain, plus dia ckp mcm takde intonasi. Tp penyelia paksa suruh tanya tanya tanya, siap kata, "jgn malu-malu!"... so skarang tak reti nak color bground graph in R pon, aku tanya mamat tu.

Tp tu la atmosphere yg dia nak cultivate among his group kot, suruh keje sama2. Nak buat camtu, kena selalu lepak skali. Tu yg hari2 lunch and coffee break skali (alem punya teori dia takde geng sebulu, those sama level either too old or too serious, mungkin gak kot), tp aku tak join la sbb pagi dah minum, kalu minum ptg sure tak tido. TAPI diwajibkan pulak lunch sekali every monday time group meeting, aiseh, kena spare duit lebih beli piza.

Tp tak dinafikan character penyelia aku tu yg buat dia approacheable. Sikit2 gelak, sikit2 gelak, buat lawak pon selalu gak. Kalau dulu aku kurang paham lawak diorg yg teknikal ni, skarang dah paham tools/apps/language yg diorg pakai, bole la jugak join gelak. Tp keje still keje. Bab ni aku selalu cuak, especially bila nk tunjuk keje, sbb dia sharp, takot dia terperasan someting tht i missed, or dia point out somehitng or gv pointers yg aku tak paham, terus terasa bodo.

So kalu kurang dgr dia gelak tu, tau la dia tgh sgt busy like last week. But this week started out pretty good. Last nite diorg stayback lewat buat paper pon, hari ni still bole bergelak ketawa lg, so nampak ok la tu.

Tp td mmg pelik betol.
So i got this strange thing with my simulation, so dok la debug sorg2. Mmg all out dah ni, tgh dok analyze each and every simulation event dgn kepala mcm nak cium meja dah, tetiba terasa ada tgn picit dua2 bahu. Sapa lg punya keje? Buat terkejut org je! Motif? Saja nak buat org terkejut la tu. Heck, happy lak tu tgk org mengandung terkejut. Terus hilang my train of thoughts, nk explain problem yg tgh buat ni pon terus tergagap2.

Okla, kalu pat on the back tu biasa la, dr. sham dulu pon selalu buat, tp ni dah takes things to a diff level dah ni. Tp tu aaa, frenly tahap kita terpelik lak. Anyway, yg penting skarang lg ok drpd dulu. Alem pon rasanya play a part gak. Dulu aku je solo. Skarang, ada gathering, aku bwk alem so rasa cam masuk skit, cuma kesian kat alem la kot, cam terbosan skit. Tp nasib dia tak segan jd temporary fixture kat opis ni kalu aku dtg weekend or malam2, diorg pon dah kenal dia.

So kalu sapa2 minat nk keje dlm group dia, sgtla recommended, tp pastikan paham sikit german, mesti outgoing, harus adventurous (kecuali ada penyakit or mengandung, in which case dia tak peduli pon unless u're in yr 9th month), tere math and stats, programming, tau regex, perl membantu, c++ wajib, svn and git, R jugak wajib, inkscape helps too, tp ni senang, and list goes on and on... tp experiencenya mmg unlike a typical description of a phd process yg kata it's a lonely process. Lonely la gak, tp dgn penyelia cam ni, mmg it does help to make it less so...

Monday, March 12, 2012

eon bank sucks

why on earth would they even want to have a bank in the first place?
Worst of all, now they've been taken over by hong leong bank, the world's rudest bank ever!

not only are they (or, maybe their customer service people, but wht do i care? They still represent the company, dont they?) rude, they are unhelpful and their services lack... everything!